It’s been a while since I wrote any blogs about my nephews.  I always think of them.  I wonder about them, what they are doing, how school is going.  I know that one day we will get a chance to hug each other again.  We are never promised tomorrow but I can promise you that you were loved by your family and our Heavenly Father who will never leave your or forsake you (Joshua 1:5).

If you read this one day I wanted to let you know that I have tried to visit with you all and see you.  I stopped by your house this past summer with your Uncle Jerred and knocked on your door for about 5 minutes.  We turned away to leave and finally Tony came out.  Long story short, I asked to see you all and Tony said that I couldn’t just show up when I wanted.  He asked me to give him notice next time and I told him I would.  This past Monday I sent him a text and email letting him know I would be in town for Christmas and asked him if I could take you to Kay and Larry’s for an hour or two to celebrate Christmas with you all, or at least come by and bring you your Christmas presents.  Another long story short, his excuse this time was that my request was not genuine and implied that there was some kind of agenda behind my request to see you all.   Tony told me that I was not welcome at his house.  So, unfortunately, this is where we are now, two years later to be exact.  I’m sure he will say that he never said we (your family) couldn’t see you because, that’s true, he hasn’t actually said those words.  But after two attempts to see you in the last 6 months or so I still haven’t been able to visit with you.  I did what was asked of me and it still wasn’t good enough.  I’m convinced at this point, nothing will be good enough.  No matter what I or anyone else does or says, none of us will be able to have any contact with you until you get older and you all make that decision for yourselves.  I really tried and want you to know that.  You were not forgotten.  I want you to know that in no way were my actions self-serving.  My intentions were always good when it came to keeping in contact with you all.  I hope you boys have a wonderful Christmas this year.  Remember to always love each other and take care of each other.  We sure do miss you.  I wish things could be different but I will just have to be patient because things will be different one day. 

I love you so very much,

Aunt Teri

Easter

This coming Easter will be the second Easter that we haven't been able to spend with you three boys.  I think about you all the time and wonder how you are doing.  Recent posts that I have been told about on Tony's Facebook suggest that we don't make an effort to come see you three.  The simple truth is we are not allowed to see you.  Lacey asked your dad if there was some way that at least the cousins can have a relationship outside of the relationships that the adults can't, won't or refuse to have, and that request was denied by Tony.  His response was "absolutely not."  Lacey's boy will be going to Marlow schools soon and will see his cousins and they will see him.  This relationship and others will be out of the parent's control one day.

I look at pictures and it breaks my heart that I can't put my arms around you.  I hope all three of you are well and happy.  Your Memaw misses you so much and your Pa too.  You are thought of every day.  We love you!